My deepening relationship...
So many people trust, until.
Until it gets “too hard”
They ask God or the Universe for something over and over thinking that’s how they manifest and when it doesn’t happen the way they want, they’re done.
It’s too much.
I’ve been choosing another way and it’s created the most incredible magic.
I’ve been living in this space, where whenever something important is coming, I choose a trust deeper than I ever have before.
It’s not about asking for what my ego wants.
It’s about choosing to fully surrender to the knowing that no matter what happens, I will be okay.
It feels soft. Open. Smooth.
Last week I shared that so many beautiful synchronicities happened for me this winter and I believe it was because of the choices I made to be the woman who would be okay no matter what. There’s a list of 11.
11 pieces of evidence that I am supported. That magic exists.
This has all happened because of the relationship I’ve created with God and with my body’s ability to hold me through it all. The ability to choose each moment from a place of truth vs. fear. It’s a practice and I am feeling the next layer.
Here’s how it all went down…
I made a powerful choice to go home and spend time with my mom and her side of the family over the holidays, knowing that as of Jan 22nd, new regulations would mean that I may not be able to get back into the States unvaccinated.
The night I arrived in Toronto, the local driver my brother had been using happened to have another passenger who he had committed to picking up and they landed an hour before me, making my 3 hour drive to prince Edward County county half price. The drive was smooth and filled with great conversation.
Although I am unvaccinated due to personal choice, the customs officer did not put me in that group upon arrival and I was chosen for a random test at the airport but was sent on my way without the anticipated 14 day quarantine requirements or day 8 testing. I did not have to check in daily with public health or receive a visit from a public health officer and although I was in the country and not planning on doing much of anything, I experienced the kind of freedom I have been experiencing living in the US.
My original plan was to fly home to San Diego on December 30th but on December 27th, when I found out one of my besties was going to be back in Austin for her birthday on Dec 31st and she had had a really rough Christmas break (her dog was killed by a car 10 days before Christmas), I decided that I would see if I could re-route my flight through Austin and stay for a few days. After 3 hours on hold, not only was I was able to reroute to Austin on the 30th, but I was also able to book my flight home from Austin to SD and only paid an additional $18.
My flight was booked out of Watertown, NY because no one in Canada can get on a plane without being vaccinated. This meant I would need to get a ride across the border about 45 minutes from my moms place. Two days before my flight, I realized that on December 21st, 11 days into my visit home, the Canadian government added an additional regulation that ANYONE coming in to Canada, even at a land border, would need a negative PCR test. This meant that all the cabs that were going across the border for trips were no longer able to as they would not be able to get back. This meant that anyone we knew who could maybe drive me across the border was now no longer able to. This was also not a border that I was able to walk across. As I breathed and realized that I would maybe have to change my flight to Buffalo, a 4 hour drive away and near a border I could walk across, I trusted that it would be okay. I then received a text from a shuttle company I had texted earlier saying they’ve had permission to drive across the border and Dino was available to take me the morning of my flight. He had in fact just returned from Syracuse with no issues.
Driving to the border the morning of the 30th, I knew there was still a risk as only essential travel was allowed into the states for the unvaccinated. I have a visa but there was always the possibility that the border officer would not deem it “essential” enough. I got to the border, ready for what was to come and when I told the officer what page my visa was on, he thanked me for being helpful, did not ask my vaccination status and laughed at how he knows Dino because of how often he takes people across. 30 seconds. Easy. Dino was the bomb and I know I will be using his services in the future.
I arrived at Watertown airport to see that it was a single gate, single airline, single building terminal that was smaller than the local train station in Carlsbad. You know what that means? When it’s foggy, the small planes don’t have proper instruments to land. And when one plane can’t land, then that flight is cancelled. And that flight is the only flight leaving that airport for the next 30 hours…. Well that was exactly what happened and as I started to feel the panic creep in, my two besties got into problem solving mode with me and I talked to the woman at the ticket booth who booked me the first flight out of Syracuse the next morning which was an hour away. My gals got me an Uber and a hotel and I had solved my problem. I haven’t experienced support like that from people other than family, maybe ever.
I then saw a nice looking man and think that maybe he needs to go to Syracuse too and 3 minutes later he overheard my conversation and asked me if I was going. I invited him to share my Uber and we ended up having an incredible hour long conversation about how the Universe brings people together for special reasons. He’s on his own spiritual journey and most definitely left an impression on me.
After we dropped him off, my driver and I started chatting and he told me how incredible my energy is and how my positivity anchored the entire car ride. He had overheard me talking about my work with women and embodiment and encouraged me to keep going and that so many people in this world need my gifts. He shared that his daughter who has since died, was also like that. That 30 seconds with her could make someone’s day. As he dropped me off, he looked me in the eye and said, “you have a gift. do not ever forget that.” I was almost in tears.
The next morning I made it to Austin no problem and ended up having a nourishing few days with my friends.
To top it off, we had had a few family members come visit for Christmas and although no one was sick at the time, c v d got into the space and quite a few got sick afterward, yet throughout my entire journey, I remained healthy, even after arriving home to my dad who also had it.
And of course…. I had the most amazing time at home with my mom. Deepening our relationship. It was the biggest treat to be there and surrounded by her love.
Why do I share all of this? Because there are so many people who aren’t choosing to live what they’re committed to because of the fear and the restrictions and the stress. So many people aren’t even attempting to because it’s just too overwhelming.
I was committed.
I did my research, I knew the rules and requirements and I was prepared to follow them. I planned the most efficient way I could and then left it up to the mystical nature of this world.
I trusted at the deepest level possible. And in that trust it was easy. I didn’t have to dig in to find my faith every time things got wonky. I just lived as if it was all beautiful. And it was.
That is what I am bringing into 2022. Being in relationship with the magic of life. Every moment of every day. Dancing in the possibility and surrendering to the energy that is here to move me. How are you living? Are you seeing the gifts in each moment or are you controlling? What magic moments have you experienced lately?